About Me

The way you will see me is not how I see myself. Everyone in this world considers themselves the most mundane person in existence, the one looking back from the mirror every morning. That doesn’t mean that extraordinary people don’t realize they’re extraordinary, it’s just that they don’t understand what’s difficult about it.

This is to say that if I sound unimpressed by myself, it’s because well… I am. Like I do some cool stuff, yes. I have a ton of fun thinking up new things every single day… But… I don’t know any other way to be.

I had to find a fix for the world because I was sick of it.

Nothing in this world works without people or animals. Therefore, to fix this world, we have to fix people and animals – mainly people. How do we do it? We find a way to create a world where everyone can live a happy life, not just the life they consciously want. Sometimes, we have to give people better than they deserve so they’ll learn to want better things.

That said, we need to find a way to give people better than they deserve without giving them ourselves when they don’t deserve us. We have to do better without taking a hit doing it.

That’s the stuff I work on. I want to not only leave the world a better place than it was when I found it, I want to leave it healed, so that I don’t have to do this shit again for another million years or so.

Reincarnation.

I am a very, very old soul and I know I am basically a baby just pushing on her feet. We live forever. Forever is a very long time. Our first job is to figure out who we are as individuals and how to keep ourselves entertained for an eternity, in our own way. Nobody is entertained exactly the same way. I am entertainment to some people who are entertainment for me. We are all here for nothing but to kill time and to enjoy ourselves. There is no other purpose or goal, just to learn to chill. We just need to learn to chill and be happy.

Therefore, I chill on Second Life and doom scroll until my eyes get blurry.

This time will never return. WE don’t die, but this time will pass. You’ll never see reels once they’ve been replaced with something different. Second Life will never be like that again. Your favorite form of entertainment is never going to be exactly the same ever again.

That is why we live only once. We live this time only once… But we live an endless series of times only once.

Love everything you love like there was no tomorrow. There is a tomorrow… Just not one quite like this.

 

Rules

I’m not your guru, but you can still take hints. Don’t replace your own thinking process with mine. My thinking won’t be a substitute for your thinking… But it can help. You need to think how my thinking relates to you and your life. It won’t be one-to-one. We’re not quite the same person… No matter how similar we are.

(I do think we live several lifetimes at once, tho, so there are some women who I think are literally me in a different body… As a disclaimer for I will contradict myself later on. :D)

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I build and hang on Second Life and while I was scripting some crazy fun but unnecessarily difficult object it suddenly sank in me: “I’m going to have to get paid for this.”

The last time I felt similarly was the time when I read Finding Fulfilment Inside Out by Laura Carrol and I arrived to the humble conclusion… I sound sarcastic but it was actually very humbling: “I want to understand everything.” I looked at my answer in the air inside my computer table, you know when you stare at nothing seeing something… I figured, “Well that’s true. I do want to understand everything. Well. That’s it. I’ll never be happy.”

Then, about a year later, I started writing. And I wrote some more. And now it’s all here.

So now, the next project. The pig I want to wrestle. The fun part. Second Life.

Once you understand everything, (I don’t, but I understand enough to feel satisfied for now,) you’ll know it’s all a game. It’s entertainment. And right now, the funnestest thing I can think of is Second Life. So there’ll I’ll be until real world catches up.

Join me.

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Narcissism: rejection and claiming of a label despite behavior.

Another narcissistic quirk that I want to point out just for the sake of curiosity is the habit of rejecting or claiming a label despite one’s behavior. “I want all of Johnny’s money, but I’m not a gold digger!” “I am speaking on behalf of all trans people every chance and broadcast I can, but …

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