If you’re looking for permission to live your life the way you want it… Don’t. Who’s going to stop you if you do it anyway? Are you going to miss the people who won’t love you if you’re happy and not at their disposal at all times? Shouldn’t you have issues with anyone who thinks your life doesn’t belong to you?
Do they NEED TO approve of your choices? If so, why? Oh my god they might not love you?! How are you going to survive that?! GASP.
Seriously, go through the WORST CASE SCENARIO you can imagine if you did do what you want to do, absolutely the worst things you can imagine… Try to scare the DAYLIGHTS out of yourself by imagining the absolute worst. So very often, those things aren’t that bad at all.