How is our reality constructed? How much is “an illusion”, what is God’s role?
In a dream state, I do stuff I would never do in reality. I go along with some lesbian action. Girl-on-girl. I am given the template of what I’m supposed to feel, but I feel like taking a bath in a body temperature water. “Whatever”. In another dream, another girl, another situation, she wants to play with me because we both miss men. I ignite.
Dream states are the states in which free will is sometimes switched off. You know you’re doing things on an autopilot. You are ‘shown’ something. “This is how it would be if…” But that is in a dream.
Sometimes something similar happens in an awakened state. I believe that when people sometimes describe committing a crime in a state of “watching myself do this thing…” they do mean it. Something, temporarily, took over and made them do what they would never normally do. In terms of murder, it might be an excuse. You’ve wanted to kill someone for a while, and your spirit companions get tired of waiting for it to happen. They take you on, and although you know you’re not really the one doing it, you allow it to happen as it is your true wish you did.
I’ve personally said some odd stuff out loud at times that I felt were not what I felt nor what I wanted to say, but I said it anyway, once able to stop it half way to the sentence. I actually turned away from the person I was talking to as the words were coming out but I didn’t want to say them. I even know who wanted me to say it.
Even if you were taken over by a spirit, you are not without a free will. You can still alter the action, for instance, if you can’t stop the action, you can change the aim. Everything is simply a battle of will..
“The Flow” and other religious pacifiers
I am the master of living in the flow. I am too good at it. I still say NO when the flow takes me to a place I don’t want to be. The biggest misconception is, that you always wind up where you want to or what will make you happy when you live in the flow. You do not. Especially if you do not have a clear goal, a real dream. If you are completely passive, the likelihood that “the flow” takes you to a place you want to be is like winning a lottery… Or, you having made very wise decisions on who you call friends.
Religions want you to be passive. Some of this is benevolent: “I want you to be happy. Stop resisting and I’ll take you there.” Some of it is not so much: “I want to be happy. I am your god/goddess, your job is to make me happy. Stop resisting, it is your duty to make me happy.” It depends entirely on your chosen gods and goddesses which you wind up with. However, it doesn’t end there.
Simple control freaks also want you to be passive. They want the world to be predictable and function in a certain order. Therefore, your job is to be passive and obey rules.
And now, your life is a mess that you control at times, your God controls at times, the old god controls at times, society controls, your control freak mother controls at times. It is a to-and-fro of power.
Nobody really wants you to have no will
Even the sickest of control freaks want you to have a free will. This is so they can actually FEEL YOU SUBMITTING. What is control over someone if you can’t make someone submit? It’s like writing a bad movie script, in which everyone does exactly what you want. If you’re talented at all, you will be working with “actor spirits” who aid you in creating “a real” story. It is an interaction between you and your characters, and what you do is describe what they do, not make them do what you want them to.
What makes the world REAL is everyone’s individual free will, and that is the good news. Even if someone would manage to completely take it away temporarily, they’d grow bored of it after a while. And there is no danger greater in this Universe than boredom, for none of us ever dies.
What people can control
Have you ever felt like you wanted to do something but “something is stopping you”? We often feel it’s “a sign from God” or “an instinct” or something benevolent, and sometimes it is. So… We are controlled by emotion. Sometimes we feel unexplainable or disproportionate fear, which might be something like your mother being afraid something will happen to you. The most common “god” in the modern world is your own mother.
You may have been given a sense of duty and a sense of “what would your mother/father say?”
You’ll react to what you actually enjoy, want, or believe
However, to some of this you are more sensitive to than to other cues. For instance, I have no need to have a child. To say I have no mothering instinct would not be accurate, but I don’t feel like I need a child to be complete. I have felt other women ACTIVELY push this wish to be a mother on me in spirit, and for a moment, I’ve felt fascinated by it. But nobody can stay on your case about stuff like this for long, and as soon as I said it out loud that “okay we’ll make a child” the feeling went away and vanished into the thin air. Luckily, no baby. Needless to say, I got my tubes tied after that. 😀 Your partner, however, would be much more efficient in making you want to have a child, and in many cases, this is nothing but positive.
You will not truly react to a stimulus that isn’t you. Also, you cannot be made to enjoy things you don’t actually enjoy. You can be made aware what you are “supposed to” feel, but if it’s not how you actually feel, you won’t truly enjoy the feeling. It won’t stick with you. Someone has to be constantly there focussing on making you feel this thing. This is like my mother wanting me to move back home, enjoy this community, become a local artist, people will love you… And I’m like yeah, very pleasant, NEXT!
Your beliefs
People can control what you believe to be real, of course. But you know this process, it’s a simple communication. Trying to convince another person that THIS is what is but THIS is what should be, for instance. “You feel sexually attracted to X but you shouldn’t,” right?
Once your beliefs of what SHOULD be changed, whether you feel good about it or not, your attitude and malleability change. If you believe your tendency of doing X is bad, you’re likely to try and stop that behavior and to be subjected to guidance to make that happen.
A key question here is this: Who are you hurting? Are there people who are NOT hurt by this? Do you KNOW or have you BEEN TOLD? If you’ve been told, have you also been told the opposite? If so, what do YOU feel?
How your beliefs change the way you act
A great example of this is asexual women, that are numerous. One tells you “women” don’t like sex because they don’t. They believe that because they’re a woman, the same thing applies to all women. (Sameness illusion.) In reality, there are both sexual and asexual women, and the reason why men cannot figure out what women want is that all women are individuals. Just like men.
The way you behave, as a man, in “a reality” in which “no woman actually likes sex” is very different to the way you’d act under the impression that SOME women don’t like sex. The same is true for women. If you believe that all women are sexually disinterested like you, and only men actually want sex, your attitude towards this whole thing would be vastly different to what it would be if you knew SOME WOMEN do like sex, even if you don’t.
Who wants to control you and your reality?
If you are looking for suspects on who is making your life a bitch, look for the people who are unloved. The people who do not inspire true love and appreciation and admiration in others are the ones most prone to attempting to control others and their behavior.
This is understandable because once you are truly loved by just one person, you know what true love is like. You would never want to manufacture it in anyone, nor would you consider a gift you forced someone to give you a real joy. However, those who do not, have only second-hand experience of such things, and they do want to coerce and force things to go their way.
Cut your charity friendship habit
They can also get addicted to the charitable friendship and care that you’ve provided because that’s the best they’ve ever had. Do not offer charity friendship. It is not real, it’s not good for anybody, particularly not the giver. If you provide charity, make sure there is NO WAY for the recipient to take it as a personal gesture of friendship.
If you feel sorry for them, don’t. That’s what is keeping them locked in the way they are. NOBODY is completely unlovable to everyone, but as long as they can get cheap stuff from you, they won’t be forced to go looking for the real thing. This is like tough love. Like throwing out your fully capable children, when they are simply clinging onto a free meal and board at your place. Not really good for them to let them stay, but… You know. Tough love.
Feels good too because these people can be pretty pathetic and what you truly want to do is to see their last of them.
Your choice of friends will change your energy
I’ve always wondered why people think I am cold and selfish. I am nothing of the sort! This is due to a karmic soulmate connection that I have been battling off my system for a while now. She believes we are alike, because like attracts like and she believes the fact I’ve been friends with her is a sign we’re alike. (She still nods as I say this which is a freaking surprise to me.) Therefore, she attaches ideas about me that she recognizes in herself, or wishes she had: A control freak, a man-eater, cold, manipulative, mean.
She believes that I am a control freak, but that she’s a bigger one still. This makes her think she’s my God, or that I love her as I “submit” to her. In reality, I have always tried to stay in the flow and take things as they come. Only refuse things I don’t want, but not really go for what I want. I’ve now working hard to change that about myself.
Sadly, people believe her version of me because they can sense her in me. I CAN feel her in me.
I made a friend because I thought it was the kind thing to do. I felt sorry for her.
No more.
The eternal compromise
If we are indecisive or somewhat flexible with what we want, we often wind up getting something similar to what we ask, but NOT REALLY the same thing. We always get short-changed a little, if you know what I mean. A bit like it but not quite the same thing. Infuriating and soul-destroying.
This is because of the interaction between you and your poorly chosen soulmates. The ideal of “love everyone”, or “universal love”, “unconditional love” (in some sense), being friends with everyone, giving everyone a chance, or one of these things makes you philosophically a subject to very poor choices of friends. When these friends test your devotion for you, they often make you compromise. (This makes sense in a larger connection that I will not get into right now.) When you ask for something, they’ll give you something nearly there to see if you’d comply. This is also weird, because at the same time they may feel like they want you to accept THEIR VERSION was better than what you had in mind because that’s how they feel. That’s what they’d want. They just thought you were settling, so in their mind, they gave you something better than you asked for.
This leads you to a situation, where you blow your head off or hang yourself on your bath room door, and the people closest to you wonder why you did it, after all, you had everything a person could possibly hope for. They go on to state that you had issues lately. You were just unable to be happy.
Your physical self, the guardian of your reality
Your physical self, somehow, seems to contain the super admin switch. In spirit form, as in between your latest death and the next rebirth, you’re kind of screwed. It may only be a split second, but during that time you will be directed to the next circumstance that everyone connected to you voted for you. This would likely send Elvis’ new incarnation the hell away from Pricilla for instance… Or keep Pricilla in good health for a long, long time…
However, the physical self has a much higher chance to an autonomous action than the momentarily disembodied one. Therefore, during your life, it is important that you will make the wisest possible choices of friends, and actively work on improving your connections. Make sure you are surrounded by people you trust, even if you couldn’t shake all of them, make sure you have as many trusted people around you as you can possibly find.
If all else fails, connect to your authentic tribe in spirit.
Connect with YOU. What DO YOU want?
A friend of mine has always wanted to work with whales. Instead, she has been given the opportunity to work with primates. Clearly, many of us, myself included, would die to work with our closest cousins, so the people close to her felt they were giving her opportunities to do something better than what she wanted. And by giving her the opportunities is emotionally inviting the “right” people to offer her opportunities. As she has a feeling whales would be too good to be true, she is likely to accept the next best thing and try and learn to love apes.
Reconnect with what you truly want. No matter how crazy or unlikely. This is important for your next life if you are traveling at the end part of it if nothing else. Then again, the older you are, the less influence your parents are going to have unless they are super controlling and still alive.
Think
Do some thinking about what it is that you truly want. Answer some questions for yourself. If you are sexual, it’s usually best to start from what kind of sex you’d want, as it’s powerful, and it’s often quite an easy answer to give. Don’t be shy. Absolutely do not edit your mind. Build everything else around it. What kind of a job would support your sexy self? A fireman? Bein a rock star? A business tycoon? A race car driver? What makes you feel sexy? If you haven’t gotten through the newbie posts, do read this one.
If you are loaded with an emotional package about a plan or a decision, ask yourself what is it that YOU want to do. Then, as an extension, if you know your True Emotion Mirrors , ask yourself what they’d want you to do. Your combined answer should be absolutely perfect.
What are gods?
I no longer believe in gods in the sense that I used to. I believe we have people among us who have been treated as gods. We have those who actually BELIEVE to be a god, but at best, it’s a job title, not a species. ANYONE can decide to become a god, and anyone can decide not to.
I am somewhat embarrassed to say things like this out loud, but… I am one of those people who has systematically turned down the role of a goddess. Once I’ve refused, imposters have taken my place. I will still refuse, and note that anyone who will ever pray in my name, this lifetime name or another, will get an answer from an imposter. I know some people will want to make me into a deity after this lifetime. Don’t let them. Nip it in the bud. Many came before me who were too embarrassed to say such a thing out loud and it turned out not to be a good moment to be coy.
You can still try and talk to me, ask for guidance in spirit if you want, but do not worship me as a goddess, I’ll make you pay for that. The reason being, that nobody gets shit poured down their neck as much as a god or a goddess. Plus, I don’t give enough of a shit to do it. I do, however, call myself the patron saint of men, although, I haven’t been sainted, of course. I do love men. 😉 (And I do mean male individuals, not men as a species, mind you, twats.)
The known gods
No god is “one god”. There’s more than one person answering the prayers directed to Allah. I can identify two. One is the freaking war-mongerer, and the other is the one for peace. The latter also answers to some Christian prayers as “god”. The former used to. It is even truer there is more than one person answering the call of the Christian God. He is as messy as they come. Of course, they’ll answer the spirit call directed to them, but not all Christians find the same god as they read the bible. My own Christian God variation doesn’t want to believe it, but I am certain of this. Every continent, possibly even every country and even every soul group (family) has their own variation of all of the Christian characters, the God, the virgin, Jesus and his people.
You do not need to worship a god. It’s your choice, but to be fair, if you have chosen a god for yourself, own that choice. I’m not saying you should continue worshiping that god. I’m saying whatever shit came down on you as a result, you chose to kneel, and that’s your mistake. I will never blame my god for doing *this* to me, in fact, I wanted… some of this. But I do blame another demi-goddess who I have never considered a real deity for getting her hands into my life.She hasn’t got any business being mentioned in the bible, let alone worshipped… (The virgin, I mean. There are some good fakes out there, some worth the worship, but the real one should have never been put in there. She’s vicious and manipulative… The kind that would let you think she was conceived by God.)
The Creator of all things
I have a different theory to the Big Bang thing. I believe that the Universe was, and still is outside the physical bounds, a field of pure potential energy. The atoms still for nothing has disturbed the balance to make atoms appear. Everything in a state of expectation so fragile, that the smallest of disturbance would set it off… The opposite of the Big Bang theory that states all were clumped in one spot, I say everything was spread out into a state in which all atomic particles were spread across the universe so they have no interaction to each other.
In this state, I believe, one of us became self-conscious. The first ignition of thought would set everything in motion. As the Universe expands, it creates more matter, not push our matter out towards it, I believe it creates more matter as it goes. I believe that a simple action as thinking about the extremities of the Universe might be enough to make it expand further. I don’t think we can ever reach it, as if we would, we would create more of it as we see it ahead of us.
Collaboration
ANYONE could have created the Universe. It’s just a matter of asking, who was it? Who was the one who first snapped to his (or her) senses? Then we started manipulating what we created. As each one of us probably created a little different combination of atoms based on our own personal energy field. I don’t know, but I am certain what we’ve got is a collaboration, not the work of one single God.
I do believe there is one who still REMEMBERS the first days. And I think his observational bias makes him think he did it all himself. The rest of us might not have been self-aware enough at that time to think that we did it, we probably were just kind of floating around being all doped up over it… but this one guy probably was ahead, remembering. I think he is the memory of everything he’s seen happen, and as such… Very god-like.
Just like our emotional reality, I believe our physical reality is a result of all of our thoughts and actions. The beginning of it all a trial and error. First, we learned to create gas by simply moving through a field of nothingness, then, gradually, we’d interact with the gas, that would create liquid, that would tighten still into solids etc. Once we started believing it would all hold together, we would come up with something more exciting… Like a one-cell bacteria. I believe our bodies are like the spiritual equivalent of the latest tech. Just something to store our data on and to interact with others with, right?
And why?
Why the hell not? If the alternative is nothing at all, why not something, anything at all?
Who do you want to control your reality?
After having said there are no gods, I’ll as you this? Who do you want to control your world? Who do you want to influence what happens in your world? Find your gods by finding your idols, who you focus on, what you focus on, who you allow give you pleasure and enjoyment.
Go towards those who are like you, or even more to the point, the way you want to be. If you’re far from your goal, keep idols. If close, make friends with your idols.
We are all prone to changing ourselves to be what we most admire! It is only natural to do so. We are not awesome by accident, if you feel you’re the best person in the world, you’ve simply done a good job becomeing what you, yourself, admire. Well done. It doesn’t mean everyone agrees or that they should, it means you like what you’ve done with yourself, and that’s awesome.
Work on your embarrassment
The only thing stopping us from being what we truly want to be is embarrassment, really. Too embarrassed of one’s vanity to join the gym for instance. (Kinda me.) Too embarrassed to admit to really want to be a prostitute. 😀 (Me, lol.) As we all try to alter people’s idea of what is good and what is not (you have to be kind and attentive and love fat people), we start feeling embarrassed about who we are, as in what we admire, and stop ourselves being that way. The more embarrassed we feel, the more we are opposite to what we want to be.
Whenever you feel embarrassed, whatever it is, study it. What is it that you’re actually embarrassed about. Then, work it out for yourself. Then… Gradually, chip away at it. Become the true you and free yourself from everything you do not really enjoy.
Like fucking social obligations. Gah.
The only thing that is an illusion is death
The only thing that we get fooled by is the concept of death. It’s a necessary illusion, it’s like a reset button that clears some of your hangups and drama… Not all of it. It erases the active memory, which allows you a clean start again, but you still have all the stuff you’ve learned with you – good and bad. So when you are born again, you are in the state of amnesia. That’s all. You can regain your memory if you want to, but often the past life memories stay suppressed for lifetimes on end. This serves the purpose of having the experience you know nothing…
You know the saying youth is wasted on the young? The older the soul, the less the youth is wasted. 😉
Physicality is not an illusion. It’s real. The illusion refers to the fact that all matter is energy, as in… wait for it…
spirit. At least spirit in the sense it is something that is not quite physical. A lot of the time, feel, a god has tried to explain the physical reality in a way that mere morels could understand it, mostly failing. 😀
Reality is and isn’t subjective
Your observable reality changes by the people you allow into your life. That doesn’t change the reality as a whole. We all function under the same rules, and what is true and real, is what is true and real. Even if it would turn out we all live inside Matrix, that wouldn’t make our lives unreal, it would make it so that it is real that we live inside Matrix. Oddly comforting, isn’t it?
The only thing we truly worry about, in terms of reality is this…
Do I have a free will? Do the people around me have a free will?
I think we all agree, that if this is a perfect universe, we all do.
Don’t give it away, it’s the most precious thing you have.
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