“I will tell you how to be loved by me” – disrespect or sign of love?

OK, this will probably make very little sense to you, but please be patient; Yesterday, I was driven to the point where I decided to tell my Junk Shop Spirit Mirror what it would take to actually become my Destination Soulmate of either tier. The full list. It’s not a short list, and at the top of the list is this: “Be so authentically, do this on your own.” Someone just consoled her; “At least she loves you – she gave you the list” and I’d like WHAT THE ACTUAL FUCK?! I gave her the list of reasons why I DO NOT love her, the list of things that everyone else that I DO LOVE does possess but she doesn’t, and the only reason why I gave her that list was to emphasise the fact how little value I give her! I also told her, that the likelihood of her actually being able to become what I require of my friends are slim to none – so she retorted: “I will do it just to spite you, and then I will leave you when you fall in love with me!” And I’m like “Are you a fucking idiot?! That, again, puts you in a category of an Antagonist Mirror, not an Destination Soulmate, so what you are asking me is how to hurt me or how to annoy me, or how to have revenge, NOT how to become my Destination Soulmate, the first requirement of which is to love each other for everything that they are, completely, because each considers the other perfect.”

“Plus”, I told her. “To be my True Emotion Mirror, you’d have to be a man.”

Granted. If she would reach that level I ask of her, she would have my respect. At least, as the first requirement on my list of friends is that they do need to have enough self-awareness to realize that their actions hurt other people and their first concern before making any decision or action should be: “is there a danger I will hurt someone if I do this?” and her first idea was: “I will do this in order to hurt you”, we are sort of at odds, don’t you think?

I essentially asked her to change everything that she is, and here’s this the Young Soul* thinking asshole saying: “Oh, at  least she loves you, she gave you the list…!”

Yeah, whatever. Good luck to her at that. She needs a few thousand years to get where I need her to be, but hell, I must be worth it, right?

Fucking morons.

It is probably not smart to publish this, is it? 😀

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