In terms of level of spiritual evolution, what am I?

Guru, oracle, sage? You know?

I don’t know. Personally, I don’t know. To be honest, the answer both annoys me and scares me. I don’t think spiritual evolution goes quite the way as video games do. I don’t think there are clear qualifiers for anything, but I don’t know.

What I feel like is that I’m the current ‘highest evolver’ in my soul group. As the only woman in my True Emotion Mirror group, I was set to evolve, given the emancipation of the female gender in the last few decades. I feel like I’ve spent my previous several simultaneous lifetimes – in the plural – at psychiatrists’ offices, talking my ass off about every problem I might have, and this lifetime at a spiritual/psychological boot camp to clear out any unnecessary crap that I have carried around with me – like the need to not swear. 😀

My biggest pet peeve has always been the woman’s position in society. The fact most of my True Emotion Mirrors never gave two cents about it didn’t really remove the annoyance of it. Therefore, as soon as the ike of womanhood was lifted off me, I became free to see what the liberated woman can do… Also, social security systems enabled me to live an irresponsibly financially non-productive lifestyle, which is a privilege and an opportunity I don’t know will stay that way. (I hope it does; it’s a good thing, social security. And I’m pretty sure I’ve been one of its most vocal critics in previous lifetimes.)

I know I am not at the top of spiritual evolution, in “final incarnation” or any such rubbish. I’ve basically just learned to walk somewhat shakily. Maybe this is a crawling speed; I’m not sure. What I know is that we’re all only getting started, and as ancient as we may be and feel, we’re just babies, all of us… Even if we have been here since the dawn of time. Forever is a very, very long time, and this is but the very start of it all.

Maybe in some sense, I’m a child who has just become aware of how long she has to live. Can’t see old age yet, can’t see my death – that’s too far for me to comprehend – but let’s just say… It doesn’t matter where I am spiritually. You won’t be here, ever. This is my path; yours takes you elsewhere. Speaking of the “spiritual path,” there is no such thing. There’s just uncharted territory and wilderness. If you see a path that’s more than likely taking you to the wrong place. At least keep an eye for the moment when you have to get off the beaten track and walk toward your own star so to speak.

Am I higher in spiritual evolution than Buddha?

Probably.

;p

(Why do I say that? He led people to avoid life, in a sense. You have to enjoy life. To love it. To make it so you cannot wait to get to live forever. My equivalent might be “avoid the Young Soul*” but like social isolation, that, too is a phase. The Old Souls* must learn to play them, you know… As a team. Play with them like… Toys. They are toys. Our toys. To be fair, we are probably their game. So… It all evens out.)

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