Spiritual People’s Manifestation Problem with The Law Of Truest Wish

This post relates to all people who believe in a higher power of any description. I am one of those people. I have, all my life, felt the presence of a ‘higher power’ that I have always called by the name of God. When I became psychic, this same energy that I connected with the name God started talking to me, first through a pendulum, then, directly through a psychic conversation. What I quickly realized what that my faith in him started to diminish. Although he was clearly aware of certain things and he was quite well glued on compared to my completely useless spirit guides, and the angels who came in with a clear energy of superiority and a massive ego, God, in comparison, was the closest thing to what his reputation would have us believe.

Yet, he was not infallible or all-knowing. He was wise, yes, very wise, but when you start thinking that you’re smarter than God, you’ve got yourself a problem. Sure, he KNEW things, but he wasn’t able to conclude things based on his knowledge. He had experience beyond anyone else, he knows how things have been and where they’re likely to go, he knew a bunch of psychological tricks – including reverse psychology which he unsuccessfully tried on me on several occasions – I’ve never been a sucker for reverse psychology, because I don’t rebel for the sake of rebellion, I rebel because I have to. Therefore, giving me ‘freedom to think myself into a dead end’ doesn’t work, I am smart enough to figure things out for myself and that went all the way to concluding that although I believe in the immortal soul, I believe in a plethora of psychic and spiritual phenomena, ghosts, reincarnation, you name it, I no longer believe in such a thing as souls with a different INHERENT role. Nobody here was BORN a god, angel, or human, originally, we CHOSE what we became. We chose it for a variety of reasons, but we are by no means locked to that fate.

Therefore, a human can be elevated to the position of a God, and I believe this is more or less where our God comes from; the status of a silverback gorilla in his pack is indisputable. Therefore, whatever we were before, elevated this man to the status of a God, and we haven’t yet figured out that well… He’s awesome, but he is no god… Per say.

Demons, angels, and all creatures that have a physical expression are all simply expressions of the exact way we want to be, an expression of our ego, and I am relatively convinced all angels and demons have a physical expression on this planet, and very likely god has, too. “What if God was one of us, just a slob like one of us, just a stranger on a bus, on his way home…” I am pretty convinced he is exactly that – but more than likely unemployed or homeless as I don’t think employment or even business is his cup of tea. His spirit self would ignore his poor physical self, as he thinks of himself as being an immortal spirit, so whatever he is, he’s most likely living in God’s blind spot.

That is to lay the foundation for the problem; if there IS no God, and if you are aware of it on some level, but cannot really remove yourself from the belief there is a God, or your former silverback cannot erase the feeling you should bring them gifts before he or she gives you a god damned thing… You may be in a bit of a bolt lock situation with your life.

Take us for example. A bunch of former life priests, prophets, apostles, and spiritual masters…

I am sitting surrounded by a group of very spiritual people – but they are with me in spirit only. We want nothing more than to meet each other, but our old Gods are waiting for their bribes, and we cannot QUITE shake the feeling we need a permission to meet.

However, the Law of the Truest Wish is a tricky one

I renamed the concept of the Law of Attraction because my version describes what happens All The Time, Every Time, and you can decode it easier. What is it that you TRULY wanted? Answers? We wanted God to answer what we were doing here. He couldn’t answer, because he didn’t really know. We were demanding answers where there wasn’t any – but that doesn’t mean that The Law won’t answer. I don’t know what the hell the Law is, it maybe the closest thing to a God we have, but by the very definition of this entity, God, it cannot have a persona. Whenever there’s a persona of a God, it is less than it’s own sum, and that, by definition isn’t the Universe that some of us believe to be “a God”. But that force, the pure potential, something arranged it so that whenever there’s a need there is going to be a response to that need. Whatever our souls grave for the source will fill.

And that NEED isn’t always what we wish we wanted, or what we rationally think we want.

Like us wanting to meet. We do want to meet, we want to meet BADLY. We want to be together from this life onwards, but there is stuff we want to experience BEFORE we get together. And we all think this is an insult to each other or ourselves that there is something else that goes ahead of us meeting. That we all have some need we need to fulfill before we spend the rest of our eternity together in some form or another…

We know we ARE held back by our belief that we need a permission, but why DO WE need to be held back by that need or any other need that could jam us into place? And as always, these equations make one’s sense of reality unravel a little because we live in a world where ALLLLL… EVERY True Wish we have WILL come true, inevitably, without a possibility of it stopping – and if there are two spirits with conflicting wishes, it’s just a question which one of you has a stronger true wish, and eventually, you’ll find that the other person’s need to be rejected is actually a real True Wish. So all of this goes in a crazy circle of needs, wants, and wishes meeting, in a perfect balance of things.

And nobody is sure if they like that thought until they realize that the counterbalance is always there: Nobody TRULY wants things to go their way at all times, so that need cancels out the need that everything will always go easy on them. So. At the same time as we GET everything we wish for, we also wish that there was a potential of error in the scheme, and, thus, we create a potential of failure for ourselves in the exact measure at which we want to fail.

The purpose of our lives could possibly be, that we have to come to terms with the fact we ALWAYS get what we want. 100%

So. What does it make you, if you look at the sum of your life, what brand of a lunatic are you exactly?

How did you create your reality?

Do you want to know who to trust? Did you ask to find true love? Did you want to know the full extent of emotion? If so, didn’t you ask people to betray you so you’ll know who would? Doesn’t that bring in people who you CAN trust, too? Separating the fake friends from the bad? How do you know true love? Would you know true love if it hit you in the face on a broadly lit street? What kind of an emotion did you want to experience, did it go from dark to light, what fantasy as a child or a teen you painted to live as you grow up? What kind of a hero or a heroine did you saw yourself as? How closely does your current life reflect those bold dreams that still thought you were invisible and that you were going to be incredible when you grew up?

Who did you want to prove to you that you don’t have to trust them? Your dad? Your mom? A friend you had enough of?

What if they love you so much that they’ll respond to your wish by failing you so you can let them go without feeling guilty of judging them so? What if there is no way they can win, anyway, and you simply have to accept it’s not them, it’s you?

Did you want the truth or be proven right?

The Paradox of the Evil

I think we are all hard-wired to giving each other exactly what each one of us truly, deeply wants. No matter how horrible people they are. Our deepest dreams are not nice. They’re dark and horrible.

How long did the Jews pray for their God to test their faith? To let the strongest to prove that they were the purest in faith? What more a test of faith could you receive than the Holocaust? Was Hitler Satan or was he God himself? Who else would have given the Jews the Hell they were praying for other than their own God? That may be a stretch, but I know he was exactly where he was asked to be. Serving the needs of those he hurt. He gave the world a personification of pure evil to hate and fight.

He is the object of hate, but he was needed… What soul could commit such an evil that would make them the most hated spirit in this universe… It is easy to be a hero. Everyone wants to be a hero.

In a very deep sense, the Universe is all theatre.

Love and hate, pleasure and pain

We all need both. We all NEED to feel both pleasure and pain, love and hate… We need an element of fear… Well, all emotions. We need ALL the emotions to feel truly happy. Sacrifice, being sacrificed for, lack and abundance. Often, the thing we want the most is the thing we get the last. It is a driving force and it’s also something that we PLACE a high value on even if it wasn’t difficult to obtain. I’ve been blogging for 20 odd years, struggling to gain an audience. A friend of mine decided to write a blog post about organic tomatoes once as she got peeved about their price, and as a side thought, posted a post or two about some fashion stuff she bought… You get the idea. I SCREAMED out loud when she told me her reader stats once.

Fuuuk.

What do I want… Besides blog readers. I want EVERYTHING. I am so GREEDY that I want it all. I have told myself no for so long, I’ve told myself NO over and over and over and over, and now, I want fucking everything. I want EVERYTHING THAT IS MINE, and I want it as soon as possible. However, everything is a lot to ask for. And, I want it all at once, too. I’ve always been a sucker for a good overnight success story, none of this gradual, sensible bullshit. After this lifetime, I want my men with me from day one… or… year 16 or something, and none of this bullshit I’ve dealt with earlier. But before that, there seems to be a wish or two that needs to happen to make it all complete.

And if I have got my theory correct, my men have a corresponding wish on their side.

I’ll break this down for two reasons: For our own benefit and as an example

(I’ll use the Tarot cards to help me.)

• I have a need to ‘understand everything’ once and for all. I’m sick of not getting the rules of this game, so I wanted to know how this shit works. (Result of a bit of a ponder session into what is it that drives me, ‘looking deeper into things’, seeing how it works… etc.)
• There are, for some reason, several spirits in my life who want me to have everything that I want. You’d think this is a good thing, but it’s actually really bad sometimes because these spirits don’t really understand me. They THINK they are doing what I ask of them, but they keep fucking it up in such incredibly weird ways that you just kind of… Despair. And yet, somehow, this will serve what I ACTUALLY want.
• I wanted my mother to do something so inexcusable that I can tell her to go away without feeling bad about myself for doing it. She’d always been a negative force in my life, but she never did anything THAT BAD, in fact, she always tried to be a good mom, but our energies are simply completely off. Chalk and cheese as they say, and there’s no SENSIBLE reason I can tell her to fuck off, but I want to do it SO BAD.
• I never want to base my reality ON A LIE. I am an obsessive seeker of the truth, so I cannot judge things or people like my mom based on a lie or a fake reality. So there’s a possibility that they are playing dumb in order to satisfy my first need of telling them off, but if they’re faking it, they are contradicting my deeper need of complete honesty and understanding it all the way it is, not the way it seems to be.
• These same spirits try to fulfill my wants to feel accepted by me, but my true wish is to get rid of them, so we are at a direct conflict with each other. They are trying to do what I want of them in order to be accepted, I want them to fuck things up so bad I can show them the door without feeling remorse for doing so.
• The way out might be that I simply have to accept being the true bad guy here, and tell them, for no realistic, sensible, or justifiable reason that I truly don’t love them, these spirits, and that I need them to fuck off simply because I cannot stand the sight of them. So I want to save face but for as long as I want to save face, I cannot get what I truly want. (So part of these things are always “what is more important to you?”)
• I also wanted to know myself perfectly. My friend (one of these souls I just mentioned) also want to know me perfectly, alongside with a few others, but the troublesome spirits wanted to know how to please me so we’d get along, but the trouble is, they CANNOT please me. There’s nothing they can do. There is simply NOTHING they can do to please me. (And I never ask anything of them because I know this is the case. Simply by their sin of being female if nothing else… I simply don’t CARE about women that much. I want everyone to be happy, but I want women to find happiness separate from me.)
• We, as a soup, want to clear all ties that would pull us apart again. Whatever that takes is a bit unclear to me.
• Tarot (God, that is) asks me “what are you ashamed of” or embarrassed about, there’s a very likely blockage there. (And currently, he’s embarrassed about the whole ‘he’s probably a homeless guy somewhere with entitlement issues and a foot fungus -thing, which is more than likely true…’)
  • I am ashamed of GOING AFTER stuff. I feel like things should come easier for me. I feel like if I have to WORK HARDER it means I’m stupid. This could be about school, having learned that I learn quick and pass exams easy and the like, and only dumb kids have to study hard. It’s like studying hard is worse than not passing an exam at all. Then again, everything that I want requires a bit of go-getter attitude. At the same time, I feel that is just the comfort zone I want to get out of, the comfort of not having tried too hard, and the safety of knowing that I don’t have what I want because I never gave it THAT much of a try…
  • As soon as I thought about going after something, my aunt, who is a bit of a go-getter herself, seemed to stop me – “no.” As if it was a question of balance. Then again, I wanted to reach what I wanted with a relative ease I remember thinking “millions will fall into my lap”. (I just wish they’d fucking hurry.)
  • The big change – are you ashamed of it, or your family? I claim it’s mom who is ashamed of my possible rise to fame, as she FULLY believes I don’t belong there, so she’s afraid of my embarrassment and as a consequence that of her own.
  • I’m ashamed of my own need of fame, and attention. Getting less so, but used to be seriously ashamed of it. It’s also not at all supported in the Finnish culture and shunned and ridiculed in my family (not that they know I have such a need, although mom always makes comments about “my attention hungriness”, that she interprets that I need attention from her, when in reality, I need attention from everyone else except her… She is obsessed with the idea I do everything in life for her).
  • I am embarrassed about my mommy-issues that simply keep on persisting at the age of fucking 42, and they’re not my fucking problem, I have a fucking moronic mom who doesn’t fucking get it!
• So what is taking my millions (and the rest of my everything) so long?
• I want to feel equal to my men and independent among people. I hate feeling dependent on anyone, particularly my family. This might explain why I have thrown myself into this lifetime, I have to face ALL OF MY FAILURES at once, as my Tremors are eluding me. Whenever I am in any way weak or incapable, I won’t be able to move. This is a reaction to the feminist movement (that I am convinced I started somehow in some lifetime) as a woman, I don’t have the instinct of business and taking care of myself down pat. There was only one profession back in the day, and I fucking took it, didn’t I? But times have changed. I need to compete with men in business, not use them for my livelihood (after all, being a prostitute is not much different to being a wife, the same rules apply, more or less).

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