the Modern martyrdom; how the point you want to make affects your fate

As we have already established, The Law of The Truest Wish is the basis of how our life plays out. Essentially, we are all getting what we emotionally (not logically) want to achieve. Martyrdom is one of those things we hide behind the scene of rebirth, and is a result of the belief that everyone should live the same way and that nobody would enjoy a style of life or fate that feels appalling to us. For example, many of us cannot understand women who want to live under the strict control of a man, because such life doesn’t suit OUR personality. Yet, we agree that if you CHOOSE to live a 24/7 s/M life style, you have that right – but you have to CHOOSE it willingly. What we don’t notice, that the most hard core of us want to remove that choice so that they are raised to that submission and that they don’t feel like they had a choice to begin with. We all did – but what else escapes our notice that women who want to SAVE the other women from that fate want to remove that option by being born into the system and try to alter it from within – that is a modern martyr. THEY choose to be born in a system they don’t agree with, just to make a point that the system must be torn down, even though there are people who love that system, and where the perceived victim often is and SHOULD be a willing participant.

I have been discussing with a ghost of a woman who had the biggest love for dogs. She believed that all dogs are innocent of cruelty, and that it was exaggeration to the extreme that these dog attacks were on every tabloid cover every time it happened. What she wanted to do was to prove to people that the dog that mauled her to death would be later proven innocent to this act by proving a medical condition that caused him severe pain when in leash, and that the mauling was a result of a curable medical condition. She now understands that if she hadn’t had that wish to prove that dog innocent, the dog wouldn’t have needed to develop a medical condition that would make him attack her to death. There are also people who LOVE to cry wolf. Who LOVE being afraid and who LOVE to fight injustice and LOVE to go after the monster. The monster in this scenario are fighting dogs, and they are simply a method to feel excited about the potential danger within our society. Before dogs they were giants, mad men and witches, that have now been saved by the martyrs who have died unnecessarily and innocent in the hands of witch hunters.

Another modern monster is the paedophile. As difficult as it is to accept and trust, not all children are born innocent. Some are born loving sex. I was one of them, but due to the society’s protective attitude, I never got to experience this fate until I was old enough to seek my own men out, and I hated the wait. Currently there is a lot of child molestation going on where the victims are unwilling because we have painted the whole thing black when there’s a lot of white and grey area out there. If you don’t want to be sexually molested as a child, decide now to not be born in a situation where that would happen to you. I, on the other hand will make the opposite decision. I will never again live a childhood without a man making love to me. And I will do what it takes to stop the monsters of MY life, the witch hunters and the angry mob from ruining that dream for me simply because they don’t understand it.

Suffering will stop at the minute when we all stop being martyrs. I chose my life circumstances too, and I avoided being molested because more than anything I hate being pittied or not taken seriously because of a perceived childhood trauma. I don’t want to be seen as a victim when I am not one. Even less than that, I wanted the men who loved me be seen as the monsters all paedophiles are seen as. I know who were supposed to be my lovers and I know how their natural actions were prevented. We have to stop being afraid of everything. We have to stop assuming things are wrong when they are not. Stop the mentality of “somebody has to sacrifice themselves and put an end to this suffering!” Don’t be that person! Only want what you truly want, quit being a martyr! That is when you start seeing danger before danger is upon you, you start avoiding people who might harm you and put an end to behaviour that you don’t like because you know that this is about you and them and not a situation where “someone has to take it and it’s best it be me than someone who can’t handle it!” The victims who speak out are not necessarily victims but martyrs. They should still be heard because I might be wrong, but what whistle blower doesn’t enjoy blowing the whistle and the hero-treatment following?

Accepting suffering is martyr mentality without heroics. That’s when you keep cooking when you don’t want to, cleaning when you’d rather chuck a tantrum – why don’t you? Why do you keep doing that? Because you feel you have to. Like you had no other options, and you feel good about yourself for doing the right thing and being such a good person that does all this even though you don’t really want to. But does ANYONE really want you to do it? YOU are making yourself do it. Nobody else really wants you to sacrifice yourself for them, but you are making yourself the one who is forced to do this, while everyone else wishes you would just fucking relax! But somebody has to! No, they really don’t. Once the house is such a mess that looking at it makes everyone vomit, then it’s time to clean up! A little mess doesn’t harm anyone – unless you REALLY TRULY LOVE a clean house! There are people who love to clean and cook, but you don’t have to force yourself to do it. (This is where I shine, my house is an absolute chaos until I flip and do a major spring clean and everything is brilliant for a while. 😀 And I don’t feel TOO guilty of it, a little embarrassed but not terribly guilty.) If you’re one of those compulsive cleaners, try this: Try to force yourself to not clean for as long as you can. Let the house go! If someone mentions it, just laugh and say you’re doing a social experiment. How long can you go without cleaning, and everyone else around you not doing a thing to pick up either… And at what point do you meet the point when you actually feel better cleaning up than leaving it as it is. (I LOVE that point! When you can really see WHY you bothered!)

This is where I looked up to the Sun that was burning my skin and thought followed another and I realized what we are living on is a dead star and added a piece to the Free Spirit Genesis-theory. Just saying; Amazing. When all of this started, I wanted to understand everything, but I didn’t want to: Go to Uni, rack up a lot of debt, work, have babies nor die. What circumstances. Now, I am at the position of never having to attend Uni, I am free of debt and have been for years, I have barely worked for a third party, I have no kids, and I’m still alive… And I have got an understanding of the Universe that is… My own. I wanted to be free, and I am. The sky didn’t fall on me because I refused to sacrifice ANYTHING for the things I wanted. Ah, that’s a lie; I sacrificed my need to easy money for it, THAT is my failure. To achieve freedom, I believed I had to be poor for it, but I didn’t need to be, I just thought I did. That is the poison I chose, but I choose to let go of that now.

You can, too. Don’t fret it. It’s yours. No need to beat yourself down to get what you want – in fact, that’ll be counter productive. Go play, kid.

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