The word “celebrity” removes the need to be respectful (or coy)

Some time ago I seriously considered to have a go at something I’ve been wondering for years; Would it be possible for me to pull off something an early net artist did before me. I find it INCREDIBLY DIFFICULT to gain any sort of traction online. I feel like people shy away from me a little – and I feel like the cause for this problem is not having a box to fit me into, and feeling impolite to look too closely. Therefore, I thought to label myself a celebrity, like that early net artist, whose name escapes me, to remove that fear of having another look, and asking the question WHY ON EARTH?!

I’ve tried to make people look twice by several different ways before, including shaving my head. That didn’t work. People were ashamed to look – they looked at me secretly, but never directly, and nobody asked me why, if they made a comment, they said it looks, either great, or that it makes me look like a lesbian (which I’m not), or, the most popular comment was from Turkish men online, who found my bald head to be an abomination and an insult to my femininity. And then there were the bald woman -fetishists, who just wanted to be Facebook friends and never really talk to me.

I was curious if this would work. The word “celebrity” is kind of a huge compliment in some way, in some ways it is an insult, but what it is, for certain, is a permission to scrutinize. That is exactly what I wanted people to do. Just talk. Just gather around, get some beer and watch me on YouTube and try to decide whether I’m insane or a bloody genius, I don’t really care, as long as they just have a proper look to get it out of their system! Just look, just pay attention, get turned on, whatever, just…. Have a good freaking look and take a picture!

The word celebrity makes it OK to have a look

I decided against the plan because if applied to oneself, it would make people look away in order to save you the embarrassment of having been looked at when you’re not famous at all. The word kind of means “ready to be looked at”, “ready to be considered a role model.” Who decides it is another matter. Sometimes, it comes from the person’s peers, sometimes, I’m sure, people decide it on their own: “Okay. I am happy with who I am, look at me.” It takes courage to put oneself “above others”, and you have to be damned sure you mean it if you do.

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