Vanity – physical fitness and good looks, living for sex.

When I tried to put my finger on why I was feeling very unhappy in life, I realized at the core of it all was the lack of great sex and, being married at the time, the realization I’d never have an opportunity to find it, if I stayed married. My then-husband is a great guy, but we’re sexually on entirely different pages, different books, even! The book I was in hadn’t been written yet – I guess I’ll get to it later. Anyway, I realized that the source of my unhappiness was THAT STUPID: sex.

Oh, how… Awful.

As an intellectual, a philosopher, and a romantic, that is kind of disappointing. As an animal, and as a philosopher and a romantic… HA! It’s also uplifting and liberating. I CAN indeed live for sex; I can focus solely on sex and everything I need to protect the source of my happiness: Sex. Everything else can make way. EVERYTHING ELSE can make way to it. Nothing else will ever get in the way of my sexual escapades. Not God, not spirituality, not family, not children, not work, not… Nothing. Everything else can fucking vanish as far as I’m concerned.

Further, I realized that if we are all “one” the way spirituality sometimes teaches us, if we’re all fractions of the same thing, such concepts as love, compassion, and achievement, it all loses its meaning. ALL OF THAT would become fake. Meaningless. Do you know what’s still worthwhile? An orgasm. It doesn’t suffer for how it’s achieved, even if you’re masturbating over a fantasy situation, it’s still meaningful. So, if you’re having sex with fractions of yourself, that still makes sense, but nothing else really does. Everything else is a play of pretend with very little point.

Vanity

Then, we enter vanity. If sex is the key to it all, then vanity is its greatest servant.  SURE you can get sex without vanity, you’ll certainly get pats on the back, but who the fuck wants them? A pity fuck? Yeah nah. I’ll, personally, give that a hard pass, even if I’d finally get to sleep with the men who don’t feel sorry enough for me yet. I’ll wait until they break down walls to get to me. 😀 (No, I’m kidding; the Universe doesn’t need to make that a reality…. Although a door kicked in might be interesting.)

Vanity is also about self-acceptance. Fuck it. You want people to admire you. You want people to want to bed you. So be it. And what is vanity? Drive toward perfection; and perfection is… Sifting. One lifetime perfection is “slightly flawed” in another… Immaculate.

Humility and ambition

Humility is your acceptance you make mistakes. Ambition added to that, you’ll want to remove or avoid those mistakes. Vanity is the pursuit of removing flaws and weaknesses before you get caught having had them in the first place.

THAT, is a master class.

And if the inferiors feel tired, let them get off at the next stop, you’re only getting started.

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